Healing the Inner Child

blondgirlI took my inner child for a walk this past Sunday. She is about 5 years old with golden locks of hair and sad eyes.
She wanted to cry. Not just some tears or a random tantrum. It was a deep visceral sobbing. It wasn’t a long “poor me” crying session either.
It was a release from sadness in every cell in my body.
It felt like in that one cry, I cried for my mother, my grandmothers and all children who felt neglected.
I have done lots of inner child work before, I teach it almost daily to my clients, never did I have this communion with my little girl before.
I asked her the usual inner child questions ‘What would you like to say?” and “what would you like to hear?’.
I think there is an Universal Inner Child within us. He or she wants to be seen, heard, and valued.
I practiced slow deep breathing with her in a seated position and I just allowed her to hang out with me all day.
It isn’t so easy to do inner child work, that is why most people avoid it all their lives. It feels raw, extremely vulnerable, often times confusing and emotionally draining.
But the rewards are many. Inner child healing creates integration as a functioning adult, emotional maturity and a greater awareness when acting or reacting from a child’s perspective.
As we give our inner child what she perhaps never had, like deep listening, we will naturally create others being present, kind and loving towards us.
What does your inner child like to have or do today?

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Costa Rica Dreaming…

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From a very young age I have dreamt of helping the Earth. I remember as a child having the sense that the Earth was listening to me. When I found Rebirthing Breathwork I thought to myself “That is it! I will help raise the Planet’s vibration by helping people let go of negatives thoughts! One negative thought at a time!”. Looking back its amusing to me to see how serious I was about my plan. It was a great idea but I didn’t really help folks to have a connection to the Earth. I have been a contribution to many with the work I do but what else is possible with the Earth and us?
Last September I facilitated an Access Body Process class called Restoration of Communion with Earth. When I teach a class I am in the energy of it much more dynamically. Since then my communion with the Earth has expanded so much that I don’t even know how to explain it, I will do my best in this writing. Soon after the Body Class I was guided to go to Peru with an amazing group of people. The journey to Machu Picchu was unforgettable and life changing because for the first time I was vulnerable with the Earth’s power. I was able to receive everything the magnificence of Machu Picchu had to offer me. What do I mean by that? It means that I was 100% vulnerable, present, open and in reverence of the Spirit of the land.
Couple weeks ago I attended an Advanced Body class in Costa Rica, wow! If you ever been there you would agree that the land is actually happy! I stayed at a Hot Springs Resort at the foot hills of Arenal Volcano. I literally felt like I was Alice in Wonderland! Costa Rica is like a younger sassy version of Hawaii. I was in awe every single day! Impossible not to notice each flower as I walked back to our casita from the the class. The flowers would actually pull me in to them so I could enjoy them. When I sat under a tree near the water I could sense the molecules of the tree! I leaned into the tree and felt the molecules wanting to enter my skin and be a contribution to my body. The sounds of the running water was delicious waves gently caressing my entire face. Just for the record I was only drinking water! LOL During the entire time in Costa Rica I felt this new way of communicating and receiving from Nature. I have never felt this level of joy in my body, ever! Luckily the joy has not diminished now that I am back home. All I have to do is be out in nature, specially at the beach, I lower my barriers and this communion is available.
I am grateful for this new awareness. Everything is alive and wants to contribute to us! Its is a mutual giving and receiving simultaneously. I will continue to wonder what else is possible for us and the Earth that we never thought possible? The Earth wants to heal us as much as It wants to receive from us!

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I do facilitate this Access Body hands on process in private sessions and I do see a Restoration of Communion with Earth class happening soon.
Sula DePaula

http://www.suladepaula.com

 

Is it confrontational or a door to freedom?

Some people say that Breath-work is confrontational.
When I had my first session back in 2003 twenty min into the relaxed circular breath I got up and declared the session over! I wasn’t afraid of loosing control at all! LOL 🙂12472525_1079525385404268_8637982305431287086_n
The invisible wall I sensed was so incredibly real that it froze my body into a cold sweat. I can still remember my shirt being wet along side my spine.
Back in those days there were no breath-work practitioners or Rebirthers in Delray Beach and I followed my inner guidance by attending a Breath-work weekend at The Rebirthing Breathwork Center in Philadelphia. Even though I felt fear I chose to continue forward with the 9 Month Program. I’m kind of proud when I say I flew to Philly from Florida ten times in one year because it took perseverance and trust.
Leonard Orr discovered circular connected breathing aka Rebirthing Breathwork in the early seventies. He realized that by connecting the inhale and exhale in a circular manner a door becomes available, a door to your unconscious mind!
With the gift of breath awareness you’ll become conscious of your deepest default settings, the type of mind settings that keeps you feeling separate, anxious, overwhelmed and confused.
Do I find it to be confrontational? Not really. When someone is truly ready to let go of their “old story” its a relief and a gift!

Peace Be Yours

30 min Peace

Are you in overwhelm or physical pain?

The body is a complex electromagnetic power house with hundreds of energy lines running through it and with a very high end communication system – the nervous system. Conscious breathing sends signals to the nervous system to relax. Access Bars energy work releases the electric charge to thoughts , feelings, and emotions. The session is facilitated while client rests on a Bio ElectroMagnetic field mat activating circulationoxygenation and over all well being. (Not to mention neutralizing the effects of electromagnetic radiation). A perfect setting for deep peace while recharging at a cellular level!

Both my given name and spiritual name means PEACE.
For the most part of my life I resisted them both, my name and peace. The Breath showed my how I was resisting it, Access Consciousness helped me change it, and now I can actually feel deep peace and keep it. A Course in Miracles once again inspiring me…  Peace is yours and you would keep it by extending it to others.

I was introduced to something amazing that I’ve incorporated into my personal practice and sessions. I’m inviting you to a 30 min Power Session.
Have a great month! Sula

Mystical Inner Journey

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“My father does not exist. I don’t want to breathe like this anymore.”

It all started with a prayer. Actually, it was more like pleading for help. I didn’t t know to whom I was praying to or what I was praying for. All I remember was kneeling on the yoga mat in my yoga room sobbing countless times. I felt alone, confused and desperate. I was twenty nine years old and recently divorced. I wasn’t happy in my marriage and I wasn’t happy alone. I wasn’t happy (period). I was so in love with my husband, what had happened? I had a great job and a good life, what was wrong with me? I had read on Yogananda’s book Autobiography of a Yogi that if you prayed with total devotion to Babaji, one of the masters, that he would actually come. I remember that night well, I lighted a candle and prayed to the invisible. I called Babaji’s name three times out loud and I asked for help. Someone must’ve heard me!

The first help came in the form of a tantric teacher who taught me to cultivate a relationship with the Divine Mother. The Divine Mother as the feminine aspect of God, as the cosmic mother of all things, as the primal force of creation in all forms. I learned about Goddesses of all religions and I developed a devotional attitude that sparked love within me as I never felt before. Wether It does work to invoke the divine Goddess energy or I was just focusing on something other than my melodrama I started getting happier!

Second help came in the form of a friend of a friend. A musician friend of mine had suggested I meet this guy who had just moved to Florida from New Jersey. With this new friend I learned where my unhappiness was coming from and how much healing my heart required. He facilitated my first breath-work session, breathing in a circular manner connecting the inhale and the exhale while coached by a breath-worker. In the first twenty minutes I was sweating profusely and all of the sudden I felt a wall in-front of me. My breath coach asked me one question about my father and responded with an assertive tone of voice “My father does not exist. I don’t want to breathe like this anymore.” I declared the session was over and I went home.

Once home back to the safety of my aloneness I wrote on my journal. Obviously my father existed and enjoying very good health. In that moment I realized I had some inner exploration to do! I knew breath-work was going to heal me. Few months later as suggested by my new friend I registered for a 9 month Rebirthing Breathwork Program. This program was one weekend per month for nine months at the Philadelphia Rebirthing Breathwork Center. Every month I flew from West Palm Beach to Philly to unravel the imprints in my subconscious mind, the thoughts, feeling and emotions stored in my body. Most importantly I was getting to know myself.

I was making peace with my past by working with  conscious breathing, forgiveness, integration of un-acknowledged feelings and community. Breathwork and the support of my senior teachers help me relax in my body and to trust myself enough to allow the emotional charge to come forward and be released. I found safety within my mind to feel, to speak my truth, to let go and to share the work with others. I realized how not having bonded with my mother created unsettled feelings in the core of my being. These feelings never allowed me to experienced I belonged anywhere. I saw how my first broken heart was actually caused from not having my father’s presence. I became aware on what drove me to leave my country and family  at the early age of fifteen years old. I processed my upset feelings with my parents, I became aware of my judgements, expectations and projections.  Every time I would visit my parents I would notice how my relating to them would change. I had more patience, more space for them to be themselves. I was just more present for me and for them which in turn brought more joy and connection. In addition to healing with my parents my relationship to men also changed. I became more available, more loving and understanding to the man in my life. In general all my relationships improved as a result creating more intimacy within myself. This healing didn’t happen in one session or in one training. Deep healing happens over time and in layers. My commitment to my healing and to breath-work was the catalyst to change. I stayed alert to my thoughts and now I knew my tendencies and patterns; I wasn’t in victim consciousness anymore.

I understood the truth of the statement “your thoughts creates your reality”. Every time my mind wanted to blame I would remind myself of my choices. Little by little I saw the drama that I had created and with time and awareness started to see the beauty of it all.

Today I continue to work with conscious breathing and I am always amazed by the power of it’s simplicity. Is my heart healed? Absolutely! Do I continue to heal different aspects of my mind? Absolutely!

One thing is for sure I have more happiness and love in my heart and I have a tool that I can always count on…conscious connected breathing!

I am forever grateful to the Universe, the Cosmic Mother, all angels , gurus, and Spirit guide who heard my calling and continue to guide me and support me!breathing

Sula dePaula

Creator of A Breath of Consciousness Breathwork CD.

www.suladepaula.com

Steps to expand gratitude

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It’s Thanksgiving time in the US.
A time to gather with family and friends and share food, love and gratitude.
I am aware that for some people right now the feeling of gratitude is not the easiest to access.
What if you don’t really feel grateful?
What if its been a hard year for you, or if the world’s issues has you on a spiral down into gloomy feelings?

Instead of making yourself wrong try these simple steps to have and enjoy  a bigger grateful heart. Please share with others as you never know who is struggling within.

1. Energetically lower any walls, barriers, barricades, or “Do Not Enter” signs around your heart center. Allow your heart to open, staying present and vulnerable.

2. Do a fear and/or resentment inventory. You can do it as a writing process if you wish or just ask “If I was resenting someone or something right now what would it be?”, “If I had fear right now what would it be?”, and “what would it take to clear it?”. Let it go.

3. Invoke kindness. Lower you barriers again and soften your edges and become aware of your surroundings. Start with expressing gratitude for the obvious things around you. “I am grateful for the roof over my head” “I am grateful for the clothes I am wearing” “I am grateful for the body I have”. Slowing expand your awareness and your vision acknowledging the blessings in your life by expressing conscious gratitude for it. “I am grateful for my friend” “I am grateful for the town I live in” I am grateful for all the events in my life that led me to this very moment” “I am grateful for this journey called life” “I am grateful that I am in my life” I am grateful for the Earth”. Etc.

Acknowledge YOU! Acknowledge yourself for creating all the things in your life! Good or bad because at the end of the day ALL of it is a contribution to your personal evolution. Once you can do that with sincerity you will naturally extend it to others.

I am grateful that I never give up on my happiness.
Gratitude expands who you are, what you are, what you do, and the gift you are to the world.

Thank you for your contribution to me and to the world!

Happy Thanksgiving!

San Pedro Whispers

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Unexpectedly I felt his touch.
It was as gentle as Humming bird kisses
I sensed the pull to unknown ceremonies down in the Canyon
Tired of my pain and committed to my freedom I showed up
I showed up again and again
Embraced by love and grace
Slowly unraveling my story
Purging projections and expectations
But It was in his land…
A land of high mountains, gentle people, and fluffy lamas
In his land the deepest blind spot came to light
Head pounding, body shivering
In every shiver eons of emotional tension released
Light of consciousness dissolved dis- ease of mind and body
The Earth swallowed my anxieties
The awareness of my personal trap was clear
I laid down my armor and my shield
I said goodbye to the one who has been fighting everything
Yes is the mantra, all heart opens
Separation was my mind’s perception and rejection was my defense
I now include myself in oneness with trust and vulnerability
I surrender my forceful will and bow in gratitude
eternal friend, where ever you are I am blowing humming bird kisses back to you.