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Mystical Inner Journey

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“My father does not exist. I don’t want to breathe like this anymore.”

It all started with a prayer. Actually, it was more like pleading for help. I didn’t t know to whom I was praying to or what I was praying for. All I remember was kneeling on the yoga mat in my yoga room sobbing countless times. I felt alone, confused and desperate. I was twenty nine years old and recently divorced. I wasn’t happy in my marriage and I wasn’t happy alone. I wasn’t happy (period). I was so in love with my husband, what had happened? I had a great job and a good life, what was wrong with me? I had read on Yogananda’s book Autobiography of a Yogi that if you prayed with total devotion to Babaji, one of the masters, that he would actually come. I remember that night well, I lighted a candle and prayed to the invisible. I called Babaji’s name three times out loud and I asked for help. Someone must’ve heard me!

The first help came in the form of a tantric teacher who taught me to cultivate a relationship with the Divine Mother. The Divine Mother as the feminine aspect of God, as the cosmic mother of all things, as the primal force of creation in all forms. I learned about Goddesses of all religions and I developed a devotional attitude that sparked love within me as I never felt before. Wether It does work to invoke the divine Goddess energy or I was just focusing on something other than my melodrama I started getting happier!

Second help came in the form of a friend of a friend. A musician friend of mine had suggested I meet this guy who had just moved to Florida from New Jersey. With this new friend I learned where my unhappiness was coming from and how much healing my heart required. He facilitated my first breath-work session, breathing in a circular manner connecting the inhale and the exhale while coached by a breath-worker. In the first twenty minutes I was sweating profusely and all of the sudden I felt a wall in-front of me. My breath coach asked me one question about my father and responded with an assertive tone of voice “My father does not exist. I don’t want to breathe like this anymore.” I declared the session was over and I went home.

Once home back to the safety of my aloneness I wrote on my journal. Obviously my father existed and enjoying very good health. In that moment I realized I had some inner exploration to do! I knew breath-work was going to heal me. Few months later as suggested by my new friend I registered for a 9 month Rebirthing Breathwork Program. This program was one weekend per month for nine months at the Philadelphia Rebirthing Breathwork Center. Every month I flew from West Palm Beach to Philly to unravel the imprints in my subconscious mind, the thoughts, feeling and emotions stored in my body. Most importantly I was getting to know myself.

I was making peace with my past by working with  conscious breathing, forgiveness, integration of un-acknowledged feelings and community. Breathwork and the support of my senior teachers help me relax in my body and to trust myself enough to allow the emotional charge to come forward and be released. I found safety within my mind to feel, to speak my truth, to let go and to share the work with others. I realized how not having bonded with my mother created unsettled feelings in the core of my being. These feelings never allowed me to experienced I belonged anywhere. I saw how my first broken heart was actually caused from not having my father’s presence. I became aware on what drove me to leave my country and family  at the early age of fifteen years old. I processed my upset feelings with my parents, I became aware of my judgements, expectations and projections.  Every time I would visit my parents I would notice how my relating to them would change. I had more patience, more space for them to be themselves. I was just more present for me and for them which in turn brought more joy and connection. In addition to healing with my parents my relationship to men also changed. I became more available, more loving and understanding to the man in my life. In general all my relationships improved as a result creating more intimacy within myself. This healing didn’t happen in one session or in one training. Deep healing happens over time and in layers. My commitment to my healing and to breath-work was the catalyst to change. I stayed alert to my thoughts and now I knew my tendencies and patterns; I wasn’t in victim consciousness anymore.

I understood the truth of the statement “your thoughts creates your reality”. Every time my mind wanted to blame I would remind myself of my choices. Little by little I saw the drama that I had created and with time and awareness started to see the beauty of it all.

Today I continue to work with conscious breathing and I am always amazed by the power of it’s simplicity. Is my heart healed? Absolutely! Do I continue to heal different aspects of my mind? Absolutely!

One thing is for sure I have more happiness and love in my heart and I have a tool that I can always count on…conscious connected breathing!

I am forever grateful to the Universe, the Cosmic Mother, all angels , gurus, and Spirit guide who heard my calling and continue to guide me and support me!breathing

Sula dePaula

Creator of A Breath of Consciousness Breathwork CD.

www.suladepaula.com

Steps to expand gratitude

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It’s Thanksgiving time in the US.
A time to gather with family and friends and share food, love and gratitude.
I am aware that for some people right now the feeling of gratitude is not the easiest to access.
What if you don’t really feel grateful?
What if its been a hard year for you, or if the world’s issues has you on a spiral down into gloomy feelings?

Instead of making yourself wrong try these simple steps to have and enjoy  a bigger grateful heart. Please share with others as you never know who is struggling within.

1. Energetically lower any walls, barriers, barricades, or “Do Not Enter” signs around your heart center. Allow your heart to open, staying present and vulnerable.

2. Do a fear and/or resentment inventory. You can do it as a writing process if you wish or just ask “If I was resenting someone or something right now what would it be?”, “If I had fear right now what would it be?”, and “what would it take to clear it?”. Let it go.

3. Invoke kindness. Lower you barriers again and soften your edges and become aware of your surroundings. Start with expressing gratitude for the obvious things around you. “I am grateful for the roof over my head” “I am grateful for the clothes I am wearing” “I am grateful for the body I have”. Slowing expand your awareness and your vision acknowledging the blessings in your life by expressing conscious gratitude for it. “I am grateful for my friend” “I am grateful for the town I live in” I am grateful for all the events in my life that led me to this very moment” “I am grateful for this journey called life” “I am grateful that I am in my life” I am grateful for the Earth”. Etc.

Acknowledge YOU! Acknowledge yourself for creating all the things in your life! Good or bad because at the end of the day ALL of it is a contribution to your personal evolution. Once you can do that with sincerity you will naturally extend it to others.

I am grateful that I never give up on my happiness.
Gratitude expands who you are, what you are, what you do, and the gift you are to the world.

Thank you for your contribution to me and to the world!

Happy Thanksgiving!

San Pedro Whispers

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Unexpectedly I felt his touch.
It was as gentle as Humming bird kisses
I sensed the pull to unknown ceremonies down in the Canyon
Tired of my pain and committed to my freedom I showed up
I showed up again and again
Embraced by love and grace
Slowly unraveling my story
Purging projections and expectations
But It was in his land…
A land of high mountains, gentle people, and fluffy lamas
In his land the deepest blind spot came to light
Head pounding, body shivering
In every shiver eons of emotional tension released
Light of consciousness dissolved dis- ease of mind and body
The Earth swallowed my anxieties
The awareness of my personal trap was clear
I laid down my armor and my shield
I said goodbye to the one who has been fighting everything
Yes is the mantra, all heart opens
Separation was my mind’s perception and rejection was my defense
I now include myself in oneness with trust and vulnerability
I surrender my forceful will and bow in gratitude
eternal friend, where ever you are I am blowing humming bird kisses back to you.

Machu Picchu here I come…

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Yes! Today I’m packing for a trip to Peru! Last month while I was preparing for the Earth class I felt such a beautiful communion within Earth that I longed for more!
It is time for me to go to Machu Picchu, I felt within me. I jumped on this opportunity to go with a group of amazing people. We are going to Cusco first then we will visit Sacred Valley, Temple of the Moon, Mori Salt Flats, Mandor Falls, and Machu Picchu Village. Lots of adventure for just 11 days! I started going to the gym to strengthen my legs and I am boosting my immune system!

I am very much looking forward to Communing with the Earth on these Historical Sacred Sites.

I like to invite you for updates from the trip and even videos. Yes, I am growing into courage to make videos and test my vulnerability. When I tap into the energy of the trip I sense a lot of laughter! I am sure it will be a great adventure! It is a Spiritual Quest with deep prayers for personal growth. 

Are you a loner? I realize that I do love my alone time and there is nothing wrong with it. However; when I moved to Los Angeles in 2010 I started being aware of my separation patterns. I researched a lot on the brain’s limbic system and the primal part of the brain called the Reptilian Brain. If the Reptilian part of the Brain is over active it perceives things as a threat when in fact it is not. Then the only solution for the threat (which comes with all kinds of body sensations) is isolation. I have been paying very close attention to when I choose to be alone from a desire to be on my own or as a survival automatic response. It’s quite fascinating. 
Perhaps I will learn more about my brain and Oneness in Peru…
That is what I am asking for on this trip communion with me, the Earth, close friendships, and lots of laughter!!

Look for me on Periscope! Download the app, then search for Sula DePaula ( @suladepaula). 
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Hope to see you soon!
Sula dePaula

 

Why I went from using affirmations to using questions

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I worked intensely with affirmations for several years. Whether I was working with clients, in my Breath-Work classes or in my personal life affirmation was a constant tool for clearing the past and any negative mental mass. I saw and felt the positive effects of affirmations and then came a time when I perceived a limitation. I was looking for more expansion and less mind control. The mind wants to control and I wanted to give the mind less material to defend against or to prove any righteousness.

I started using questions instead of affirmation after I was introduced to the pragmatic tools of Access Consciousness.
I learned questions like “What would it take for… to show up in my life? “What is really possible here” or “Who does this belong to?

For example; Instead of using “I am abundance” try using “What would it take for more money to show up in my life? When a person embodies the energy they don’t need to keep repeating it. Instead of using the affirmation “I am ____” try being the energy of what you are asking for and ask for that to show up with total ease. If you don’t know how to be the energy that you would like to have ask the Universe to show you.

Here is another example; When I wake up in the morning instead of affirming that I will have a great day, I ask a question “what fun adventures will I have today?”

By asking the question, not looking for the answer, and being in wonder gives me the awareness of what can actually be possible to choose for my day to be awesome!

Gary Douglas, founder of Access Consciousness, teaches that “living as the question” and not looking for an answer opens up a whole Universe of infinite possibilities. It keeps you from jumping into conclusions and judgments which is a limitation to creating what you would like to have.

In this article from the Access Consciousness blog you can read how science is discovering that a question will always create more in your life. How does it get even better than that? 🙂