Tag Archive | self love

Healing the Inner Child

blondgirlI took my inner child for a walk this past Sunday. She is about 5 years old with golden locks of hair and sad eyes.
She wanted to cry. Not just some tears or a random tantrum. It was a deep visceral sobbing. It wasn’t a long “poor me” crying session either.
It was a release from sadness in every cell in my body.
It felt like in that one cry, I cried for my mother, my grandmothers and all children who felt neglected.
I have done lots of inner child work before, I teach it almost daily to my clients, never did I have this communion with my little girl before.
I asked her the usual inner child questions ‘What would you like to say?” and “what would you like to hear?’.
I think there is an Universal Inner Child within us. He or she wants to be seen, heard, and valued.
I practiced slow deep breathing with her in a seated position and I just allowed her to hang out with me all day.
It isn’t so easy to do inner child work, that is why most people avoid it all their lives. It feels raw, extremely vulnerable, often times confusing and emotionally draining.
But the rewards are many. Inner child healing creates integration as a functioning adult, emotional maturity and a greater awareness when acting or reacting from a child’s perspective.
As we give our inner child what she perhaps never had, like deep listening, we will naturally create others being present, kind and loving towards us.
What does your inner child like to have or do today?

San Pedro Whispers

HummingbirdEP6

Unexpectedly I felt his touch.
It was as gentle as Humming bird kisses
I sensed the pull to unknown ceremonies down in the Canyon
Tired of my pain and committed to my freedom I showed up
I showed up again and again
Embraced by love and grace
Slowly unraveling my story
Purging projections and expectations
But It was in his land…
A land of high mountains, gentle people, and fluffy lamas
In his land the deepest blind spot came to light
Head pounding, body shivering
In every shiver eons of emotional tension released
Light of consciousness dissolved dis- ease of mind and body
The Earth swallowed my anxieties
The awareness of my personal trap was clear
I laid down my armor and my shield
I said goodbye to the one who has been fighting everything
Yes is the mantra, all heart opens
Separation was my mind’s perception and rejection was my defense
I now include myself in oneness with trust and vulnerability
I surrender my forceful will and bow in gratitude
eternal friend, where ever you are I am blowing humming bird kisses back to you.

Intimacy with me…

I used to think intimacy was being in a committed relationship.

I used to think intimacy was tantric sex with the perfect lighting and music.

I used to think intimacy was sharing every single thought, feeling and emotion with my partner.

I used to think intimacy with me was eating healthy foods, doing lots of yoga and writing in my journal.

All of these things gave me connection AND still I was always craving “depth” in every area of my life.

What was I missing? I was lacking true intimacy with me. I was still judging me.

So much has transpired for me from learning these 5 Elements of Intimacy by Dr. Dain Heer.

The 5 Elements are Honor, Trust, Vulnerability, Gratitude and Allowance.

Join me as we explore these elements followed by Conscious Connected Breathing Journey for integration and expansion…

Group Breathe will be held at The Red Tent 4838 NW 2 nd Avenue. Boca Raton 33431
Wednesday February 11th 7:30-10pm.
$30
Please bring mat, pillow and blankets for your comfort.
Everyone will get a homemade raw chocolate made by me!

The Radiance Sutras

The Radiance Sutras

Radiant One,
The life essence carries on its play
Through the pulsing rhythm
Of outward and inward movement.
This is the ceaseless throb, the rhythm of life-
Terrifying in its eternity, exquisite in its constancy.
The inhalation, the return movement of breath, sustains life.
The outgoing breath, purifies life.
These are the two poles
Between which respiration goes on unceasingly.
Between them is every delight you could desire.
Enter these turning points,
Where the rhythms of life transform into each other.
Breath flows in, filling, filling,
Then surrenders to flow out again.
In this moment, drink eternity.
Breath flows out, emptying, emptying,
Offering itself to infinity.
Cherishing these moments,
Mind dissolves into heart,
Heart dissolves into space,
Body becomes a shimmering field
Pulsating between fullness and emptiness…
(by Lorin Roche)

Anger- Friend or Foe?

Anger- Friend or Foe?

familiar and safe like a brother
yet destructive and unforgiving
no one wants to be near it
suppressed it boils until the explosion
deceiving power only
seen by the ridiculous defensiveness
she defends herself bluntly
deep guilt arrises
she punishes herself in a hundred unconscious ways
what to do?
is it her own or was it passed down as normal?
is it someone else’s?
confusion and then again it arises
in her family
in her partner
in her thoughts
she has fiercely processed it to the ground
yet understanding it does not make it disappear
is it real?
is it a distraction from creativity?
she laughs
she chooses peace again and again